altk 1August 15, 2011 | 8:01 AM | 0 Strawberry
once again i am killing myself inside . everybody doesnt know that i am dying inside . dying without you . counting to 10 with take a deep breath and step forward .
keep saying to my heart all that time "this is for you baby , the one that i sacrifice until killing our love . i step forward and go on . i brave myself for you baby . for you "
doesnt feel like same . i left my phone behind . i go to school . i didnt bring your love . i left it at home . i was afraid to bring it along . afraid that i will lost in on somewhere . i didnt take any risk , so i left it .
i dint wake up you for sahur , i see my phone . a lot of your picture on my screen phone as i set it for my wallpaper . i smile on that picture . smiling back to you although i know you doesnt feel to smile like that . take a deep breath and go for sahur . remember what you said "take care for you healthy sayang" , so i eat a lot . mummy just see me with a pity faces , i just ignore it and keep thinking you and your words . i eat it until finish and i've got stomach ache after that .
reach in the school , more silent like an idiot . wawa keep push me to be a strong girl , be like bell who a small girl with a happy go lucky faces , with a cute laugh , my heart keep crying all that time . baby i love you , this is not like we dream on . i talk when i need it , when it is important or other friends asked me . the rest i just be a silent girl . study like always i used to .
wait for bus , and Gosh i feel very bad that time . totally my brain such a painful thing ! i jump and smile like a kupang faces . see what on my screen phone . "2missed calls from baby apek gemok on 8.16am" . see ? only such that miscalls thing from you make me smile with a cry .
you text me , and accompany me . baby you such my hero . how can u know that im in painful and need you that time ? you didnt mad when i fall asleep , you keep reply back my text although i give it late . and until now u still accompany me , im so glad . just dont know how to describe in words . i dont know how to express , but i think you know what i feel when i have you beside me back .
this is our ♥ harabell
